I Think it's about a year not write anything in this blog. i dont know why i feel so blank of inspirations to write such a note in this blog. maybe because i don't have any special moment that have to write down during this time.but now i will try to forced my mind to write..:) mm...the first question is what the title for my write for today? feel confused :-?.. i think it's not so far from.. mm..as usual..about my heart story..hohohoo..
( which have not found the side parts of it :p. yeah, guess what and im sure your guest will be correct..hoho "still with a same problem" = looking for a guy :D :D :D hahaaha.. mmm..firstly i want to write the story about a guy who took my heart for about these 3 months recently... i don't know whether i found him, or he finds me :p, but essentially, i found him on facebook :p. yeah, the biggest social network nowadays. maybe that heard too childish and not sure, because in the previous time, i think everything about cyberspace world is can't be held and cant' t be expected. but there i go recently. fortunately, he and i are lived in the same city. so that's not too "too good to be true" isn't it? hehe.. briefly, we are know each other and start to chat in fb is about over a year ago.. but that's not too intens and rarely, but about three months ago, accidently, i met him in a mall, and firstly i didn't know and i didn't aware if that's the man, but when i look at him so long and he look at me too, then i know that he is that guy who i know from fb.. hoho.. briefly, then after that day, our communication is became closer and our chatting duration everyday is more often. since that day, we start to talked about such a serious topics, family topic, job, etc, and that's more than just a funny topics that we usually talked before. finally we come to meet again, and he comes to my house, and then we dinner together. but that's all. i try to be patient for not forced him to say anything about our relationship now, i try to be patient.. he also told me about his past story that so horrible and terrible, but i try to open my mind and accept him just the way he is. but still, he never say anything about love to me or his intention to build a serious relationship with me. so i don't know whether i should wait in patiently, or i must say it to him firstly, or should i give up now. i wait everyday.. wait..wait.. we are still chat as usual, chat with a normal conversation and that's (as usual) can make my heart beating faster everyday and can re-charge my mood and i feel so happy whenever he greet me in fb everymorning, i feel so fresh and i have a new spirit B-). although i don't know what's the relationship status between us now, but i feel yeah, that's enough when just replying his chatting with a cheerful heart and mood. but suddenly, there's a matter that very serious that involving my family matter, and i admit this is my fault. i shouldn't tell him about the personal matter like this for this time, i tell him all about my personal matter. that's my fault. i have a bad habit too fast to trust someone else that i just know. then briefly, i feel so "ilfil" towards him because of that matter. then finally, here i am now. same like before. single with broken hearted. hhuhuhu... but because God is good for me, i think my mom feel the way that i feel (hoho) so she invited to take a rest in Bandung for a week..woowww...that's good..i think that's very proper for this time.. i can relax my mind and my heart for a while.. refresh my mood,, wooowww... i hope i can get a new heart when i come back later from this place.. i hope i can face a new day later, eventhough there's no one there greet me again in my fb every morning, or just give me a merely an attention to me. i hope i strong enough to walk away alone and strong enough to keep on waiting the best person from God in the best time for me. hohohohoho ^_^ caiyoo
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